CAT scan

[thejunipertree]

My mother received the results back from her latest round of CAT scans this evening. I don't much feel like re-hashing what they said, so instead I'm going to copy/paste part of an email I sent to Miss Robin earlier when she asked how it went.

As for the doctor, well. I'm not exactly pleased
with what my mother had to tell me. She says that
the radiologist reads the results different then
the oncologist, so I'm not quite sure whether we're
in bad water yet. But, for what's it worth: the spot
that was on her lung is now larger. There's a new spot
on the other side of her pelvis. And there's another
spot that's near her liver, though they're unsure about
that.

I'm not really quite sure what to think about any of
this, she was (once again) not going to tell me. I haven't
had a chance to tell any of it to The Engineer yet, because
we were all hanging out down here tonight and she was
around almost the whole time. I suppose I'm okay for now,
though I've had a couple of moments this evening of being
really shakey.

I can't think about this right now. Every time I start to, I begin to get weepy and that just will not do, though now that everyone is gone from my apartment (or asleep) it would be the prime time for a fit of sobbing. I'm not going to allow that to happen, however. I'll never get any sleep. And my sleep patterns have been all pear shaped lately, as it is.

I have to tell the Engineer about this tomorrow, as I didn't have the chance to do so this evening. My mother was around all night and I didn't want to talk about it in front of her, because I knew that if I started talking I'd break down. And if I break down in front of her, she'll feel worse for having told me. So, tomorrow I'm going to have to take him aside at some point in the evening (I'll be in my apartment all night, doing prep work for dinner on Thursday which Miss Carrie and I are cooking) and let him know how everything went.

hoom.

Comments

[dabble.livejournal.com]

I... fuck... *hugs*


No words... just hoping you get some sleep soon.. I know from experience that that helps.

Many hugs.

[acrorat.livejournal.com]

Ever so sorry, love. Keep your chin up etc.

[mrbadluck.livejournal.com]

i love you pookie with all my heart,your like my sister,if there is anything you need simply speak it and i will crack skulls to get it done

If'n ya need anything

[jwmfleming.livejournal.com]

Just give a call.

[serpent-sky.livejournal.com]

*hug*

If you need anything, let me know. Both of you are in my positive thought-prayer-like thingies, always.

[aprilrobin.livejournal.com]

*sigh*
I don't know what to say except that I love you and Mom and I do hope the both of you know that I'm here for you and I'll do anything I can for ya.

[neenerface.livejournal.com]

You are both in my thoughts and i'll be lighting candles and such for you. If you ever want someone to talk to who understands that sick feeling when you think about it, just let me know.

[verminefasciste.livejournal.com]

It's a lot for me to ask for, but try crying around me sometime. You don't owe it to me, but remember that this is one of the reasons I came here: to be there for you.

[dartsdelight.livejournal.com]

I know this isn't much but I wish you and your mom the best -I'll be sending you all the positive vibes I have (including some sleep ones for you) Enjoy your holiday with your friends -and don't be afraid to tell people what's going on -you need a support system and you've got a lot of willing people waiting to listen and help. *big squishy hugs* Take care sweetie.

[zentariana.livejournal.com]

*hug*