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thejunipertree ([personal profile] thejunipertree) wrote2003-05-09 08:14 pm
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control, not cure.

Two nodules now, which have grown. In the pelvic area. They're malignent. Malignant. Whatever. FUCK.

There's also a five millimeter (?) spot in one of her lungs.
They're unsure about that because it's so small. It could be scar tissue.

Port to be installed.
Radiation treatment, coupled with more chemotherapy.
Followed up by another kind of chemo, who's name is escaping me currently.

There is no talk of "curing" it, this go round. Only talk of control.

In the patient room, she put her face in her hands and cried. I put my arms around her and wanted to scream until my throat bled.

I can't leave, I still have to take care of you.
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[identity profile] sola.livejournal.com 2003-05-09 06:11 pm (UTC)(link)
there's little words can offer, but i hear you.

[identity profile] vivaemptiness.livejournal.com 2003-05-09 07:40 pm (UTC)(link)
oh christ =((((((((((
i can't even imagine.
thinking of you.
*hugs*

[identity profile] hexennacht.livejournal.com 2003-05-09 09:04 pm (UTC)(link)
bigups, my sister. i hope you had a good time at the movies tonight.

[identity profile] missjanette.livejournal.com 2003-05-09 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
words fail.
but i am here, regardless.
anything i can do, name it & I will do my best.
love to you, my dear.

[identity profile] redjanet.livejournal.com 2003-05-10 12:56 am (UTC)(link)
i'm sorry.

[identity profile] neenerface.livejournal.com 2003-05-10 10:42 am (UTC)(link)
I'm thinking of you and hoping things get better.

[identity profile] peet.livejournal.com 2003-05-10 03:16 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry, Tara.
I wish there was something that I could possibly do.

[identity profile] ferretboi.livejournal.com 2003-05-10 04:15 pm (UTC)(link)
I wish there were words I could say but I'm speechless. My thoughts are with you.

[identity profile] theepumpkingirl.livejournal.com 2003-05-11 07:53 am (UTC)(link)
my face is wet.

[identity profile] muridae.livejournal.com 2003-05-13 10:14 am (UTC)(link)
:(

[identity profile] mondae.livejournal.com 2003-05-16 10:34 am (UTC)(link)
I am very very sorry to hear this, Tara.

I wish I had a way to make it all better.

*hugs*