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I've stayed home from work today, as the second head I was growing under my arm a few months back has decided to make its return. Only this time, I can't get my stupid bra on because of it. Doctor's appointment has been made for 1:30pm and I'm worried they're going to stick me with sharp things. I'm really not looking forward to this. :/
I'm also not looking forward to going into work tomorrow. I know my boss wants to have the "Tara, you're a bad employee" talk have a meeting with me and I know what it concerns. One of the other employees already had hers and she filled me in.
Apparently, we talk too much. Which I really don't see as I barely open my mouth at all these days. And it's apparently effecting my boss's work (we sit in a little tiny hallway of sorts) and it's causing me to not finish my work (which I am caught up on just about everything, so I don't see how this is possible).
I don't know. I like my boss, she's great. But, she can be incredibly moody. And I think we've caught her in another one of her bad moods. And they always suck.
I worry on a nigh constant basis about losing my job, financial circumstances in my household being what they are. I know I can easily call the recruiter who got me this job in the first place, he could line up a bunch of interviews. But, I don't want to have to go through that. Not to mention the time inbetween the being employed-not being employed-being employed again.
And I've been GOOD at work, goddamnit. I don't mess around on the internet anymore, unless I'm on my break (and that's allowed). I don't email with people very much, except for my mother when her office phone wasn't working and she needed me to make a bank transfer. And I get my fucking work done.
Yes I've used up most, if not all, of my sick days already. But, I can't help that. Especially when the building has such poor ventilation that I catch every single little bug that people INSIST on coming into work with. Thanks, fuckers.
I hate feeling nervous like this.
I think I'm going to go curl up with the weird pillow that Blue Moon Baby gave to me on Saturday until my appointment.
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Ugh. I've used up my sick time, too, which ALWAYS comes up. If I just called off work all the time for no reason, I could understand that. However, I'm diabetic and have an immune deficiency. I catch *everything* and it seems like there is always someone at work who is sick. I can't help it! Nor do I like being sick...anyway...so yeah, I totally understand.
FIGHT THE POWER! Ok. Not really. That's where we get our paychecks... :P
But, like, I'm with you in solidarity. :)
heh
Also, the modern office and commute is a breeding ground for illness. People are so afraid to take a sick day when they're genuinely sick, the recirculated air spreads it around to everyone, and soon, every person in a five-mile radius of the person who originally had a cold has typhoid fever, and since NO ONE stays home, it never goes away. Which is probably why I have another cold today, for the second time in a month.
Bastards.
I suspect most of us get sick because we work entirely unfulfilling, soul-sucking, crap-o-rama jobs. But maybe that's just me being a bitter old biddy. Which is entriely possible.
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*sniff*
buy me ice cream?
I'll feel better.
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