letter to nowhere

[thejunipertree]

Dear Mom,

I just realized that I can't remember how your voice sounded anymore. It's only been 52 days.

I miss you so fucking much, I don't know what to do sometimes.

Love,
tara

Comments

[rowan-1958.livejournal.com]

My brother-in-law put together my mother's old 35mm film onto a VHS tape a number of years ago, and at the end of it was video of my father, with him talking....It tore me up, but I'm glad that I have it, because I forget what his voice sounds like, too. As odd as this sounds, I have a bottle of Old Spice cologne in my medicine cabinet that I sniff every once in a while, because that's what he used to wear.....*sigh*

[digichrist.livejournal.com]

I also found that to be one of the most distressing things about losing my brother, I couldn't believe how it could happen. But, late last year I was rumbling through stuff in the attic at home and found a very old cassette tape with mine and Brian's voices recorded onto it. It was a tape of us making up stories and songs when we were about seven/eight or so. It made me smile lots.

hope you're ok.

[meetzemonsta.livejournal.com]

hope you're ok.

I'm muddling through things, but I think I'm mostly doing ok. Well. Sometimes.

My mother had given me a stuffed bear for Christmas a years back, which had a recorder in it. She had recorded a message for me on it and I'd so love to hear it again. However, a. I don't think I could handle it just yet and b. I think the bear was lost in my move back to NJ.

My brother has a voicemail from her still on his cellphone, though. I'm afraid to ask if I can listen to it.

Hope you're doing well, mister.