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[thejunipertree]

My right ear hurts. I got the tops of both
of my ears pierced last Saturday. Pain. Pain
to bring reality. It keeps me grounded.
It keeps me centered.

Things have been things have been things.
For awhile there, I thought I lost quite a bit
of myself. But, it's still there. I only had
my eyes shut momentarily. It's always been
there.

The thing which hurts is gone for good. But,
the good thing. The important thing hasn't been
lost. I can handle this. I can be graceful,
an adult.

The Engineer makes me smile, everso. He has
become, and shall also remain, a good thing.
He is amazing. And makes me feel as if I'm the
only pretty girl he's ever met. This is important.
He is important.

He brings me light. And laughter. And so very
much love. I'd shatter myself for his sake.

I need to go and feel the burn, right now.