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Jun. 14th, 2007 01:20 amI used to be another person.
I said those words to the Engineer two nights ago while talking about what I was like long before he had met me. And I'm still continually struck by how true they are. I used to be someone completely different, totally unrecognizable. It's bizarre to me, that someone can change so very drastically in the course of their life. Within the past six years, there's been even more changes. Hell, within the time since my mother died. I'm not the same person.
Some things about me I miss. Other things? Not so much.
Sometimes I wish I could hold that girl I used to be underwater and watch her slowly drown. She wouldn't have struggled. Just closed her eyes and dreamed the dreams of slumbering mermaids.
And other times, I want nothing more than to wrap her in my arms and tell her that things will change. Not necessarily always for the better, but change nonetheless.
I said those words to the Engineer two nights ago while talking about what I was like long before he had met me. And I'm still continually struck by how true they are. I used to be someone completely different, totally unrecognizable. It's bizarre to me, that someone can change so very drastically in the course of their life. Within the past six years, there's been even more changes. Hell, within the time since my mother died. I'm not the same person.
Some things about me I miss. Other things? Not so much.
Sometimes I wish I could hold that girl I used to be underwater and watch her slowly drown. She wouldn't have struggled. Just closed her eyes and dreamed the dreams of slumbering mermaids.
And other times, I want nothing more than to wrap her in my arms and tell her that things will change. Not necessarily always for the better, but change nonetheless.