True. But, at least to me, there is a brink of despair that is no longer enjoyable to experience. Very few things call up this reaction in me. In fact, in art, I can think of two only. One being that song. Two being the scene from The Cook, The Thief, His Wife and Her Lover, where she finds her lover dead, and talks to him, as if nothing was wrong, while clearly aware. I cannot watch that scene, it evokes images in my mind's eye that I just don't know how to deal with, in any way.. aesthetic or emotional or logical. I first saw that movie while with S.A. and in a way, that scene will always remind me of what I would feel if he were to die. Dredges up feelings of insurmountable loss. Insurmountable meaning insur-fucking-mountable, meaning none of this I'll feel better after some weed shiznat. Not to imply I don't take our current feelings seriously, because I do.
But there is a line that I can't cross. That song, that scene, cross the line.
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Dancing with Oblivion, vs being vaporized
Date: 2001-05-16 09:47 pm (UTC)True. But, at least to me, there is a brink of despair that is no longer enjoyable to experience. Very few things call up this reaction in me. In fact, in art, I can think of two only. One being that song. Two being the scene from The Cook, The Thief, His Wife and Her Lover, where she finds her lover dead, and talks to him, as if nothing was wrong, while clearly aware. I cannot watch that scene, it evokes images in my mind's eye that I just don't know how to deal with, in any way.. aesthetic or emotional or logical. I first saw that movie while with S.A. and in a way, that scene will always remind me of what I would feel if he were to die. Dredges up feelings of insurmountable loss. Insurmountable meaning insur-fucking-mountable, meaning none of this I'll feel better after some weed shiznat. Not to imply I don't take our current feelings seriously, because I do.
But there is a line that I can't cross. That song, that scene, cross the line.