I think the DayQuil is effecting my brain

There is an imprint of Kokopelli on my brother's
black bath towel.

I just noticed this when I was washing my face
in the bathroom a moment ago.

It's got the spindly, flailing legs. The wild
hair. The flute. Kokopelli.

How bizarre.

if you want to be happy for the rest of your life,

I fell this morning, I forgot to mention that
when I was writing earlier. After the alarm
went off and I'd stood up, I was struggling into
my Alice in Wonderland flannel pajama pants.
One legged and wobbling, like a crane or a stork
or a heron. I got a bit dizzy and just

tiiiippppped

over. I crashed back against the shelves and
almost put a hole through the painting that the
Engineer did for me a couple of months ago.
That made me quite angry and I began to shout
profanity as much as my wasted voice will allow.
My mother didn't hear any of this, amazingly
enough. She had the water running in the
bathroom and was oblivious that it happened
up until the point I went into her bedroom
and lifted the back of my shirt up in the mirror
to see if I broke any skin. I didn't, thankfully.
The crash happened right on my Stellaluna
tattoo. And if that had been injured, I would
be extremely unhappy.

Sometimes I don't like my room, for just this
reason. It is extremely small. About 12 feet by
three feet. I don't joke when I say I sleep in
a closet. It IS a closet. I only have about
two square feet of space to stand up in, at
the foot of my bed. Very crowded and crammed.

So, on top of being sick, I am also quite sore.
I keep craning around to look at the small of my
back to see if there is bruising (I know there
will be, I bruise terribly easy).

I would like to make some of my Earl Grey tea
right now, but don't feel like mucking around
with the kettle.

Trials and tribulations, I tell you.

*snort*

found on alt.satanism just now

GOD IS A MONSTER!!!

The truth shall hurt you!
The truth shall haunt you!!
The truth shall kill you!!!

What is Good and Evil?
Have you ever wondered where evil comes from? Ever wondered if good is really
good? What makes evil evil, and why is it so condemned? I believe that I have
the answers to all these questions.

Is GOD really good, loving and merciful?
Judge for yourself! We all know that GOD is the superior being with all the
power. He is able to do whatever he wants, whenever he wants. So what exactly
does he do with his superior powers? Does he use his powers for the purpose of
good or evil? I think you will be surprised! I've read a Near Death Experience
story where Teenagers who have committed suicide were being isolated by GOD in
a hell like state. Since when are children to be punished with such harsh
judgments for their imperfections? They are children for Christ's sake! NO
child deserves such cruel and harsh punishments, but rather to be showed love
and forgiveness.

There is an average of 9 to 15 million earth-bound demons walking this earth.
Where do they all come from? Why are there so many of them? The answers are
very simple. They are former inhabitants of this earth that rebelled against
GOD. Many of them which aren't even evil, but are carnally minded and are
troubled with weaknesses, insecurities, oppression, and their hate towards GOD.
Many of them are even mentally ill and have been under demonic curses and
influences which were able to dominate their lives. GOD judges people based on
their weaknesses and overlooks the good in them. Satan and demons may be evil
and heartless in many areas, but you must understand why. There is always a
reason for everything. I've learned to love the wicked for who and what they
are.

Where does evil come from? Why does it exist?
Evil comes from weaknesses, insecurities and inferiority. Evil does NOT come
from choices. For instance, lets take Adolf Hitler for example. Hitler once had
the desire to become a Catholic Priest. So what happened to him? His weaknesses
took him over in which he developed hate and pride. The facts about evil is
that all it is is a cry for help. Evil is pain and misery. Evil is the cry for
love and the desires to be attractive, desired and secure. Evil comes from
being a victim of this life. Many if not most evil people come from broken and
unloving families and homes. Evil hates GOD and everything about him. Evil
comes from one's beliefs, just as good comes from beliefs. What makes GOD's
beliefs more valuable than anyone else's? If GOD created everything in this
existence, then doesn't a persons beliefs count, and have value? And why are
evil's beliefs punished with pain, where good sustains peace? If GOD does not
like the choices and beliefs of his creations, then he should have never
created them. I'm not saying that evil is right, because it's not, it's wrong!!
But like I mentioned above, evil comes from weaknesses, insecurities and
inferiority, not choices. GOD has prepared an ETERNAL lake of fire for Satan,
demons, and the wicked on Judgment Day. They will all be condemned to burn in
this fire for eternity. Is this not sick and evil? Is this not a hateful,
get-even attitude? He can easily crush their spirits. Instead of making these
individuals cease to exist altogether, he would rather cause them severe pain.
Evil is defined as morally bad or wrong; having no remorse; anything that
maliciously causes harm and pain. Is not casting these "evil" individuals into
an eternal fire to cause them harm and pain not evil? These actions are not the
answer for judgment. Lets have someone over-power GOD and through him in a fire
and see how he likes it. I can guarantee he would be weeping! Sure, GOD may
have the last laugh when Judgment Day comes, but he will have to live with the
fact that these individuals will be in severe pain. This behavior is in fact
sick, evil, childish and stupidity! My heart goes out to the individuals that
will be in this fire. It doesn't matter how evil and heartless an individual
may be, NOBODY deserves this kind of obstruction, but rather to cease to exist
in this existence.

If Lucifer is so bad as he is proclaimed to be, then why was he ever in Heaven
to begin with?? The fact is, Satan was once a GOOD individual whose pride and
power took him over, and he decided to rebell against GOD. He was also able to
take 3/4 of heavens angels with him. I don't believe that 3/4 of GOD's angels
can suddenly turn against GOD and become evil. ANY individual that has the top
authority and superiority in heaven, their pride will take over. It doesn't
matter how good that individual may be. If Satan did not hate GOD so much and
want to hurt and get even with him so much, then Satan would not be as evil as
he is at this time. Yes, evil does have goodness in it. Evil is NOT pure evil.
It's a big misconception. Demons have good in them, but GOD makes them out to
be pure evil with absolutely no heart, which is not true. I've known demons to
pick up stranded animals off the streets to prevent them from any harm. Evil is
a cry for help. Show evil the love and suppot that it needs!! My heart goes out
to the pain and misery of evil!

...BECAUSE EVIL HAS FEELINGS TOO!

Here are some of GOD's words to back up the fact that he is evil:

Jas 2:19 Thou believest that there is one God; thou doest well: the demons also
believe, and tremble! (GOD has pleasure in hurting the demons).
Psa 9:17 The wicked shall be turned into hell, and all the nations that forget
God.
Mat 8:12 But the children of the kingdom shall be cast out into outer darkness:
there shall be weeping (weeping, how evil) and gnashing of teeth.
Mat 13:42 And shall cast them into a furnace of fire: there shall be wailing
and gnashing of teeth.
Rev 20:14 And death and hell were cast into the lake of fire. This is the
second death.

*There is also a scripture which states that the children of evil parents shall
be punished. Does a good GOD wish evil upon innocent children?

I can go on and on with the words of GOD to prove that in fact he is evil!

Let everybody know about my article. GOD is cold, evil and heartless. If anyone
agrees with my article, please respond. I'm especially interested in any
responses from demons and fallen angels. Thanks
Grizzly2079@hotmail.com

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me: All right, that's now TWO IGGY POP songs that are being used in fucking commercials. I'm ANGRY.

Carrie: i was actually quite happy to hear hooverphonic in the vw vapor commercial

me: Iggy Pop should not sell Caribbean cruises. Or hawk FTD.

Carrie: ftd?

Carrie: better than fds.

me: Heeee!

me: I don't know...something about Iggy Pop speaks of feminine hygiene to me.

Carrie: maybe he'd be more down with selling fds.

Carrie: but what's ftd?

me: Some floral delivery thing.

Carrie: oh.

Carrie: um.. wtf?

me: Like bouquets and such-like.

Carrie: yeah..

Carrie: i'm just having difficulty seeing how iggster has anything to do with that shit

Carrie: if HE wanted to tell someone he loved them..

me: FTD also used David Bowie's Heroes. I almost put my foot through the television.

Carrie: well, i don't know what he'd do exactly, but i doubt it would be anything to do with ftd!

me: He'd cut his sack open and smear the blood all over a paper heart, I'd reckon.

Carrie: that's devotion.

Carrie: fucking psychotic, but sweet.

me: heh

Carrie: "it's the thought that counts."

me: "ow, my sack!"

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The worst is that some stupid company used
Twisted Sister's "We're Not Gonna Take It"
for some kind of cold medication commercial.
Not that I like Twisted Sister, but it just
made me sad that was being used to sell something
so completely mundane.

I suppose Dee Snyder is going to have put
out another movie like "Strangeland" now.

What a horrible movie that piece of tripe was.