ATTN: ROWAN

[thejunipertree]

re: our sensory deprivation floats on Saturday.

Any time for an appointment is good, just not balls early in the morning please.

Thanks, lady.

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[meetzemonsta.livejournal.com]

I currently live with my older brother, though we don't really discuss the mom situation with unless it's about what to do with her "estate". It's not that we don't care about each other and how we're feeling, it's just we've just never been very touchy-feely before. My father, who has been divorced from my mom for 28 years, tries to help me. But, he's having his own hard time with things and I wind up helping him instead. The rest of the family is all very dysfunctional and we don't talk all that much.

I do have a great support network of friends, several of whom have lost parents to cancer, so I'm not completely alone. It's still vastly difficult sometimes, though.

I do appreciate your offer to talk, especially after seeing that you went through putting your mother into hospice care. I did that, as well shortly before my 30th birthday (and her 60th, which was a week before mine).

And that was one of the hardest things I ever had to do. She was in a nursing home/physical rehab center at the time and couldn't come home because I couldn't take care of her on my own.

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[cagewench.livejournal.com]

Mom went into hospice on Oct 5th after her pain mgmt DR made a house call and said that Mom could not be cared for at home anymore and she died Nov 2nd...

I've never been overly close with my siblings... I can't say for sure if it's because I'm the only one who was adopted or because I'm so much younger than the rest of them or a bit of both...

It was heartbreaking to put her in hospice and then she was SO drugged and she went downhill rapidly at the end... she wouldn't remember that we'd been there and she forgot that she couldn't walk anymore and it was so much worse than when my Dad died in 93...

Here I was going to a cancer caregiver support group and then switched to the bereavement group at Hope Spring and I found it quite helpful... is there any organization like that near you?

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[meetzemonsta.livejournal.com]

is there any organization like that near you?

I don't really know, to be quite honest. The hospice that took care of my mom has told me that they have programs available, but I'm not really sure what kind they have or if it's something I'm interested in doing.

I'm kind of a weird head space right now, unsure whether or not I need to talk about things with people or if I'm just being overly dramatic (or sometimes, apathetic).

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[cagewench.livejournal.com]

I completely understand that... apathy and drama and depression are huge in my life right now...

and it is hard for ppl who haven't lost a parent to relate to, and cancer is especially evil and hard for others to comprehend...

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[meetzemonsta.livejournal.com]

I completely understand that... apathy and drama and depression are huge in my life right now...


I'm glad someone does.
It's not always the easiest thing to communicate to others, the odd mix of emotions.

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[cagewench.livejournal.com]

all I can say is thank god I can write poetry... it's one of the few thigns keeping me sane these days...