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thejunipertreeThe Engineer and I travelled up to North Jersey yesterday to be merry-marking holiday people with Miss Robin, Saint Rick, and Saint Rick's metric fucktonne of relatives very large family.
It was more than a bit disconcerting, to be quite honest, to witness such a huge and friendly gathering of people who are all related to one another. My tiny, dysfunctional family did not prepare me for such an event and thusly, I spent some time feeling quite overwhelmed.
Don't get me wrong, it was not a bad experience. Not by a long shot (especially the uncle from Brooklyn who pegged the Engineer as one of them there Wickerns, because he was one also). Saint Rick's mother was astonishing with how warm and inviting she was to every single person who came across her path. So, not a bad experience. Just very, very odd for me.
I spent a large part of the day sitting at one of the tables, staring with Bambi-eyed fright at the rest of the room and a diet Coke clutched in my wee fist. Many side trips were taken onto the back porch for cigarettes and accidential conversation about one's neighbors and their anal sex habits. Everyone was so freaking nice. Genuinely nice.
Later on and full as a tick, I spent the rest of the evening lying on a couch with Miss Robin, her wonderful cat, and a sack full of candy provided by Saint Rick's mother. We watched the Engineer play first Guitar Hero, and then Wii ("YOU WON, DOUCHEBAG!"). Following all of this up was the season opener of the Sopranos, more candy, and a very dozy ride home.
Today, I'm full of power-C Vitamin Water, disgust for my work place and a strange (though all too familiar) longing for a family like Saint Rick's. It makes me angry, how fucked up and scattered my family truly is, so I try not to brood on it too much. But, experiences like yesterday really drive the nail home.
I recognize that every single family on this planet holds drama, big drama. I don't expect any different. I just wish my own family could be slightly more cohesive and...normal, I guess. Instead, mine is just a collection of backbiting and feral miscreants.
I honestly wonder where it all went wrong.
It was more than a bit disconcerting, to be quite honest, to witness such a huge and friendly gathering of people who are all related to one another. My tiny, dysfunctional family did not prepare me for such an event and thusly, I spent some time feeling quite overwhelmed.
Don't get me wrong, it was not a bad experience. Not by a long shot (especially the uncle from Brooklyn who pegged the Engineer as one of them there Wickerns, because he was one also). Saint Rick's mother was astonishing with how warm and inviting she was to every single person who came across her path. So, not a bad experience. Just very, very odd for me.
I spent a large part of the day sitting at one of the tables, staring with Bambi-eyed fright at the rest of the room and a diet Coke clutched in my wee fist. Many side trips were taken onto the back porch for cigarettes and accidential conversation about one's neighbors and their anal sex habits. Everyone was so freaking nice. Genuinely nice.
Later on and full as a tick, I spent the rest of the evening lying on a couch with Miss Robin, her wonderful cat, and a sack full of candy provided by Saint Rick's mother. We watched the Engineer play first Guitar Hero, and then Wii ("YOU WON, DOUCHEBAG!"). Following all of this up was the season opener of the Sopranos, more candy, and a very dozy ride home.
Today, I'm full of power-C Vitamin Water, disgust for my work place and a strange (though all too familiar) longing for a family like Saint Rick's. It makes me angry, how fucked up and scattered my family truly is, so I try not to brood on it too much. But, experiences like yesterday really drive the nail home.
I recognize that every single family on this planet holds drama, big drama. I don't expect any different. I just wish my own family could be slightly more cohesive and...normal, I guess. Instead, mine is just a collection of backbiting and feral miscreants.
I honestly wonder where it all went wrong.
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