ever again
Feb. 20th, 2003 01:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thejunipertreeBacksliding into a depression, completely against my will.
I don't want to feel like this. I'm tired of it. Why do I have to constantly feel like I'm running into walls? And here I thought that over the past few weeks, I had been starting to do better.
So, why the fuck do I feel like this? Helpless. Hopeless. Unwanted. Unwanting.
Filthy. Stupid. A shapeless lump with no thought and no will.
Why do I feel like this? I don't WANT to. I want it to go away.
I want everything to go away.
I don't want to feel like this. I'm tired of it. Why do I have to constantly feel like I'm running into walls? And here I thought that over the past few weeks, I had been starting to do better.
So, why the fuck do I feel like this? Helpless. Hopeless. Unwanted. Unwanting.
Filthy. Stupid. A shapeless lump with no thought and no will.
Why do I feel like this? I don't WANT to. I want it to go away.
I want everything to go away.
