30 days of night- part 5

[thejunipertree]

01 - Introduction
02 – Your first love
03 – Your parents (this is long as HELL
04 - What you ate today

Your definition of love

This is a vaguely entry lazy because I am relying, as I so often do, on music and lyrics to indicate what is currently going through my head on a particular subject.

Soma, all on its own, is my perfect definition of love. How I love, how I have been loved, how I continue to love. All too often, I am perfectly at ease giving my heart away at a moment's notice to whomever, or whatever, has its hands outstretched. It's gotten me into trouble, painful trouble, in the past and yet- I am still totally incapable of not acting in that manner.

I fall in love a thousand times a day, whether its with a pretty face or the perfect fountain soda or Timothy lying on the floor with his wee head resting on a pile of fabric. My heart is pulled from my chest, in pieces. I give it away. Sometimes, I get it back. Sometimes, it's treated with care.

My relationship with the Engineer has done much to teach me about how to comport myself in the affairs of romantic love, something I have never been any good at. I've needed to learn silence and grace, patience, compassion, compromise. I've learned that love need not be something all encompassing, a fiery explosion which consumes all in its path. The fires still burn, but they are banked now and do not run wild.

I'm still learning that this is ok.


06 – Your day
07 – Your best friend
08 – A moment
09 – Your beliefs
10 – What you wore today
11 – Your siblings
12 – What’s in your bag
13 – This week
14 – What you wore today
15 – Your dreams
16 – Your first kiss
17 – Your favorite memory
18 – Your favorite birthday
19 – Something you regret
20 – This month
21 – Another moment
22 – Something that upsets you
23 – Something that makes you feel better
24 – Something that makes you cry
25 – A first
26 – Your fears
27 – Your favorite place
28 – Something that you miss
29 – Your aspirations
30 – One last moment