a day, like any other
May. 20th, 2002 03:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thejunipertreeI had such a hard time falling asleep last night, it drove me to practicing long dead relaxation exercises from the way back machine. Put me to sleep, though. All this week, I've had trouble sleeping. I'll go to bed, then lay there for a couple hours. Wondering the entire time what the hell I think I'm doing. I've also found out that sleeping on your back tends to cause more nightmares, night terrors, and other examples of parasomnia. So, being the sick little monkey that I am, I've been sleeping on my back every night as an experiment.
I decided last night that I was going to make a change. It seemed so big and important, with TAAA-DAAAAH! music in the background. But, now. In the daylight and without the soft veil of three in the morning to make my brain fuzzy and more liable to fancy, it seems a bit stupid. Foolhardy and naive, even. But, I'm still going to go through with it.
My plan is that I'm going to continue collecting unemployment for as long as I possibly can, while working a part time job (just as long as it stays under my partial, then they'll continue paying my unemployment benefits). Doing that will give me the freedom to start attending school again. So, I'm going to begin the application process with that.
This afternoon, I called Annmarie from Norton Funeral Home. My father had been a client of theirs back in November when Dorothea died. And he had told Annmarie about my interest in mortuary science and going to college for it. As it turns out, she had just graduated from Mercer County (which is the closest school for me) and wanted me to call her before I started anything regarding school.
I've been putting it off and putting it off, letting myself sink further and farther down this sinkhole of depression. But. I called her today.
She wasn't in, but I left my name and number. I'm hoping for a timely response.
Fingers crossed that she gives me good news about the school. If it's recommended that I don't attend that college, I'm not really sure what I'm going to do. If I move anywhere else, I'll have to work full time to support myself and pay for college. And that kind of negates the working part time/staying on unemployment aspect of my decisions and plans.
I decided last night that I was going to make a change. It seemed so big and important, with TAAA-DAAAAH! music in the background. But, now. In the daylight and without the soft veil of three in the morning to make my brain fuzzy and more liable to fancy, it seems a bit stupid. Foolhardy and naive, even. But, I'm still going to go through with it.
My plan is that I'm going to continue collecting unemployment for as long as I possibly can, while working a part time job (just as long as it stays under my partial, then they'll continue paying my unemployment benefits). Doing that will give me the freedom to start attending school again. So, I'm going to begin the application process with that.
This afternoon, I called Annmarie from Norton Funeral Home. My father had been a client of theirs back in November when Dorothea died. And he had told Annmarie about my interest in mortuary science and going to college for it. As it turns out, she had just graduated from Mercer County (which is the closest school for me) and wanted me to call her before I started anything regarding school.
I've been putting it off and putting it off, letting myself sink further and farther down this sinkhole of depression. But. I called her today.
She wasn't in, but I left my name and number. I'm hoping for a timely response.
Fingers crossed that she gives me good news about the school. If it's recommended that I don't attend that college, I'm not really sure what I'm going to do. If I move anywhere else, I'll have to work full time to support myself and pay for college. And that kind of negates the working part time/staying on unemployment aspect of my decisions and plans.
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Date: 2002-05-20 12:40 pm (UTC)