geek the girl

[thejunipertree]

I am not a pretty girl.

On good days, I'm passingly cute.

I get in these moods, where I feel rancid and
disgusting. A virus to infect everything around
me. Filth oozes from my skin and I can't bear
to face my reflection.

I want to be beautiful.

It's worse on nights like this. I see people,
watch the lines of their bodies, the curve
of an angel's jaw. I don't feel fit to stand
next to them, to even be in the same room. Let
alone be seen out in public with them.

It shames me and I continue to hide. I constantly
hold myself up to other's faces, only to be found
constantly lacking.

I want to be full of light.

Comments

[ninjalicious.livejournal.com]

You know we all have days of feeling this way. :/ I think you are beautiful, I always have, but even more in recent years. I don't mean "Oh, you're beautiful on the inside, and it shows!" I don't mean, "You're my friend, and I have to say something nice!"

I think you look stunning.

Hell, when we go out together, I'm always the one feeling like a bum.

[meetzemonsta.livejournal.com]

Coming from you, that means an awful lot
to me. Truly. And if I read what you wrote
one more time, I'm going to start crying.

And well, we can't have that, now can we?