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Aug. 1st, 2002 01:59 amI reckon that I'm going to convert my half hearted departed ancestors altar in my bedroom into a Baron Samedi altar. Though, I am still unsure as to whether I'll be actually doing this.
More and more of my former beliefs are slipping away, only to be replaced by new ones. And no, this isn't because of that silly book I'm reading for the Engineer. This has been going on for quite some time. The last year, I would reckon.
I remember a conversation with Jinx a long time ago, about the lwa. And about how you don't choose them. They choose you. And there isn't too much you can do about it. For all intents and purposes, it would seem as if I've been chosen. If you want to go by the recent spate of dreams I've been having, anyway.
But, my mind balks and rears back from this. I've never been the sort to turn over the reigns to some deity/spirit/whatever. I enjoy control entirely too much, you see.
Fuck it.
I'm going to go and play with scissors.
My hair wants cutting and my mind, clearing.
More and more of my former beliefs are slipping away, only to be replaced by new ones. And no, this isn't because of that silly book I'm reading for the Engineer. This has been going on for quite some time. The last year, I would reckon.
I remember a conversation with Jinx a long time ago, about the lwa. And about how you don't choose them. They choose you. And there isn't too much you can do about it. For all intents and purposes, it would seem as if I've been chosen. If you want to go by the recent spate of dreams I've been having, anyway.
But, my mind balks and rears back from this. I've never been the sort to turn over the reigns to some deity/spirit/whatever. I enjoy control entirely too much, you see.
Fuck it.
I'm going to go and play with scissors.
My hair wants cutting and my mind, clearing.