[no smoking] day two, early evening

[thejunipertree]

I just got done pacing around the parking lot at work. On the phone with the Engineer, crying. Then laughing, then crying again.

Things have gotten significantly worse since this afternoon.

I don't think I can do this cold turkey. I really don't.

I mean, I'm willful and stubborn and all of that other fun shit, but holy fuck. This is no joke. I've never felt like this before in my entire life. It's scary.

Why do I keep crying?!

Comments

[ninjalicious.livejournal.com]

Do you have insurance? Have you heard of Chantix? I keep hearing it described as an anti-smoking miracle. Of course this doesn't help you in the tonight sense.. but if you end up feeling certain about quitting it seems like it could probably aid and abett.

[ninjalicious.livejournal.com]

Abet even.