[no smoking] day two, early evening
Nov. 6th, 2007 05:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thejunipertreeI just got done pacing around the parking lot at work. On the phone with the Engineer, crying. Then laughing, then crying again.
Things have gotten significantly worse since this afternoon.
I don't think I can do this cold turkey. I really don't.
I mean, I'm willful and stubborn and all of that other fun shit, but holy fuck. This is no joke. I've never felt like this before in my entire life. It's scary.
Why do I keep crying?!
Things have gotten significantly worse since this afternoon.
I don't think I can do this cold turkey. I really don't.
I mean, I'm willful and stubborn and all of that other fun shit, but holy fuck. This is no joke. I've never felt like this before in my entire life. It's scary.
Why do I keep crying?!
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Re: I know where you're at....
Date: 2007-11-07 09:56 pm (UTC)I caved.
It got really bad after I posted that entry. Like seriously bad. I've never felt anything like that before in my life; I can't put it into words. And it scared the crap out of me.
Now I'm having
angsttrouble with the certifiable proof that I am, indeed, actually human.