ever again
Feb. 20th, 2003 01:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
thejunipertreeBacksliding into a depression, completely against my will.
I don't want to feel like this. I'm tired of it. Why do I have to constantly feel like I'm running into walls? And here I thought that over the past few weeks, I had been starting to do better.
So, why the fuck do I feel like this? Helpless. Hopeless. Unwanted. Unwanting.
Filthy. Stupid. A shapeless lump with no thought and no will.
Why do I feel like this? I don't WANT to. I want it to go away.
I want everything to go away.
I don't want to feel like this. I'm tired of it. Why do I have to constantly feel like I'm running into walls? And here I thought that over the past few weeks, I had been starting to do better.
So, why the fuck do I feel like this? Helpless. Hopeless. Unwanted. Unwanting.
Filthy. Stupid. A shapeless lump with no thought and no will.
Why do I feel like this? I don't WANT to. I want it to go away.
I want everything to go away.
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Date: 2003-02-20 11:04 am (UTC)I take it you do know that these things are not at all true.
But in case you're wondering, they are most assuredly NOT.
Life is quite asstastic for you right now. I think you are doing an amazing good job of Keeping Your Shit Together.
Perhaps a little tardly (http://www.tardblog.com/) fun will help.
Hang in there, Tara Love.