ever again

[thejunipertree]

Backsliding into a depression, completely against my will.

I don't want to feel like this. I'm tired of it. Why do I have to constantly feel like I'm running into walls? And here I thought that over the past few weeks, I had been starting to do better.

So, why the fuck do I feel like this? Helpless. Hopeless. Unwanted. Unwanting.

Filthy. Stupid. A shapeless lump with no thought and no will.

Why do I feel like this? I don't WANT to. I want it to go away.

I want everything to go away.

Comments

[hexennacht.livejournal.com]

partick is right, they called you tara LOVE for a reason. i babbled on about you to my mom all morning during shopping.. i'm trying to teach her to flip people off and shout, "I'LL SEE YOU IN HELL!" on the road. she said you sound like quite a character.

hey, you figured out the proper way to knit. that's got to count for something. i love you, and that's one hell of a feat to manage, y'ol' biyatch. i bet taking a walk would make you feel better. yell obnoxious things indiscriminately. write haiku and send it to your coworkers. punch me. c'mon, it'll be fun.